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Thursday, April 14, 2005
4/14/2005 02:08:00 pm
it's over. finally... lots of emotions going tru my head after the race... dun really noe how to put iot down into words either.. very jumbled up...hmms. it wasn't a very good run lar. dunno how come everyone slowed down yday... our trial timings were faster... really dunno why.. not strong enough mentally? bah. my head hurts.stupid leg problem acted up again. freak. stupid freaking leg. so pissed i wanna say the f word. f***. ya, got really bad after the slope, even when i slowed down, the pain was still really there.. so i stopped a bit. freak. freaking failure. can't even go 3.7 without stopping. urghs. felt like all the trainings these 2 months gone down the drain. wth. really quite disappointed. but argh.. what can i say.. it's all over liao.. this made me realise that i'm really not a race person. i don't like this feeling that you're given one chance only.. just one mistake and it's all gone. it's not like in games where you still have time to rectify your mistakes and redeem yourself.. this is a totally different experience i must say.. and i'm grateful for being given the chance to learn from this and hopefully after this, i'll be a stronger person! but yup yup. no more racing for me ever again! anyhows, i still wanna say a big THANK YOU to so many many people for helping me throughout these 2 months.. it's been tough and i wouldn't have done it without you guys..to su and lings for your encouragements and believing in me.to shu anu yaf tse and the other s25-ers for always exaggerating things and trying to make me feel like i'm someone important. to the hockers for always pretending to not want me and push me to cross training even though i know hockey still loves me a lot ( you all said so on the vj card! hahaha.) and of course for standing in one line at the hockey pitch like some little tribesmen holding your sticks high high cheering so ever loudly when we were training. i love you girls so very much!to mr tan and mr seet for believing in my abilities when i didn't believe in myself.to the cross girls mel zhen sock joce shilin szeling lingxiu rox and aileen for the 2 onths that i've been training with you girls.. it's been great knowing you crazy fun bunch and for the very great team spirit. ai pia jia eh eia! and of course dinah as well.. our very super nice senior who's always there training with us..to su mandy shilin zhen and ivana for the very nice cards and stuffs of encouragements.to everyone who has gone down to support the cross team yday. haha. yup. overall girls got 6th. think we're disappointed. but nvm! i still think you girls did well!! but sorry if i let you down(because i think i did).... and guys did well! they got 3rd! way to go guys!! after the whole thing, we had tem dinner at cafe cartel.. ate super a lot of ice cream!! damn damn damn sinful. but i didn't care.. mr tan treated us to one serving of dessert each.. so me and 4 other girls order 5 plates of dessert (which was super a lot and yummilicious!) and shared this super big plate of fried food PLUS another big gigantic bowl of ice cream thingy which had 10scoops of ice cream and lots of cookies! eat until wanna puke can. haha. but it was fun! :))) at least it cheered us up a whole lot. haha.so it's the end of one journey... and the start of another... this just makes me even more hungry to perform for the hockey season. i wanna win!! bring it on man! i wish the season would start soon!!
painting with the colours of the rainbow:)
esther
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22 october 1987
sn /1d 2w 3u 4u / hockey
vjc / 04s25 / hockey + cross
nus/ life sci/ kevii hall/ hockey + soccer + road relay
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